5/8/2023 0 Comments My spiritual toolkit![]() ![]() Lastly, I have a God that I can rely on, to show me the light and to help me to show the light in my everyday life. But what I am grateful for today is having a program that teaches me to try to be different, try to do better, and try to do the next right thing. I can roll my eyes, or say something I shouldn’t say, because reality check, sin is in me too. I can think I’m right a lot of the time and listening to someone else’s opinion is out of the question. Then I try to do better myself on a daily basis, because don’t get me wrong, I can definitely have an attitude from time to time. ![]() So, the next question I ask myself is what can I do about it? Well for starters, I choose to separate myself from toxic people, those that include the drama, the manipulation, and the attitudes. So, I ask again, where is God? Where is the light? Where is the good? Where are the good Samaritans and the people who uplift others and applaud others? Where are the people who can have civilized conversations? Where is the kindness and the selflessness? Where are the people who let things go instead of trying to manipulate everyone and everything to their liking? Now, almost everything I see and hear about involves sin. There have always been wars, conflicts, hate, and selfishness, but I also believe that there was still a lot of good going on in the world too. What I believe is that this sin has always been in the world. When did people stop being nice to each other? When did people start thinking that their opinion is the only one that matters? When did people become so entitled? When did people start thinking that violence is the only way to solve conflicts? When did people start being sarcastic, belittling, demeaning, selfish, and rude? Overall, I have a pretty fantastic life today, but when thinking about the world around me, I can certainly let it get me down. Some days more so than others, because let’s face it, life can get hard. Have I finally grown up and become clear-headed enough to start seeing life as it really is? Don’t get me wrong, I love my life. Was it because I used to be part of it? Was because I didn’t care about it? Was it because I was too obliterated to even notice? I don’t remember it being this way before. I hear and see on social media, in the grocery store, on the road, with family, in the work place, about hate, manipulation, selfishness, chaos, sin run ramp it, fear, rudeness, and I wonder how things seemed to get so bad. For me, it’s been a weird reality to grasp. ![]() I have a hard time going out because I’m wearing a mask and I look around me and everyone else is wearing a mask too. I can’t watch the news because it is too depressing. The honest truth is, I look around and shake my head these days. Now, fast forward to today, there is way too much going on, on fast forward…in my own life and in the world as a whole. There was one thing going on at a time, and life seemed to go in slow motion. Life wasn’t necessarily easier, but I had less to deal with. Over 6 years ago, life was a little simpler, and less complicated. With everything that has been going on in this world in the last year, or last few years, there is one simple question that comes to my mind: “where is God?” I remember when I first got sober, the whole God concept seemed super difficult and foreign to me, mainly because I was still unwilling to fully let go, but what I am realizing now, is that it wasn’t actually as difficult as I thought. ![]()
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